[Jerseee]

juststartingout,



I totally understand what you are going through. Currently I have demons that I am dealing with as well. They are minor in my opinion but demons nonetheless.



Akira is TOTALLY correct and just with his/her post to you. The key to that whole beautiful post is YOU.



You see, redemption does not start and stop with courts and debt--it starts from within a person and never ends. You are being called on by the creator to make a choice.



The most difficult part of this whole process is gaining faith through acceptance. pride is the worst sin of all IMHO. It keeps folks from doing the right things and encourages folks to protect it by their own undoing. Yes a man may never get his pride hurt in public, but it is the battle within that really makes the difference.



I know this sounds preachy but it is actually what you need because now is the time to choose. Don't get side tracked by looking for a way out or complaining about this thread. Instead internalize this and bring it home. make the choice. Ask the question you are afraid to ask yourself and then answer it.



And when you make that choice and truly believe....well my friend, you have just taken the red pill.



This is not to degrade or belittle anyone. Akira said it very well. This is where the rubber meets the road and that choice has to be made. I believe this is why I have a lot of success with redemption personally.